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wat dat mean?!! :{

always always, leaving short curt words that leaves me wondering, pondering, heart wrenching.....

now....i've to keep asking: wat dat mean? what on earth did those words mean? it could mean just so many things...ohhhhh!!! i'm going bonkers !! ARRrrrgghhhhh!!!

Heart : just WHAT does it mean?

Mind: a few possibilities, but the most obvious u know i know...

Heart: No,please.. NO!! it can't be !!!

Mind: the key's on the locker, it's up to u to turn it either way, to lock or unlock it...to set yourself free or continue to suffer under bondage...

Heart: the moth continues to fly towards the flame though it knows there's where it'll end its life

Mind:

菩提本无树

明镜亦非台

本来无一物

何处惹尘埃

Who wants to be a millionaire?

i've always admired the lady who sells soya bean drink near my place. She's probably around my age or only a few years older, and had been selling soya bean drink in a small shop near the market for a few years. Every day, she works from early morning at about 5plus till noon and then returns home to spend time with her children. She's always smiling, always looking serene and contented. She had mentioned that manning the stall helps her to pass time and at the same time she gets to interact with the people in the neighbourhood. Hmm, how blessed, i've often thought to myself, to be doing something not because you needed the money but because you like it, to be contented with what you have and not covet after what you do not necessary need. i've told myself many times that when all my financial commitments are over, i shall also rent a little stall and sell my favourite soya bean milk and take life easy and serene as her.

Mdm Soya Bean Milk disappeared for almost a month in December last year and i had thought she was on vacation with her family. When i finally saw her a few days back, she told me she had been sponsored by her company to attend a course cum vacation in the United States for 21days and she had thoroughly enjoyed it and sang much praises about her boss and company. While chatting, she recalled my interest for travel and excitedly asked if i would like to get to know her company that provides employees with many opportunities to travel. She didn't have time to elaborate on it 'cos i was rushing to work but we made an appointment to visit 'her company' on my off day. i wondered which soya bean milk supplier has such generous welfare programs for their employees and suspected it might be a time share sort of scam but out of curiosity i decided to see it for myself.

So on my off day afternoon, i found myself with Mdm Soya Bean Milk at a moderate sized office in a commercial building at Tanjong Pagar. The office comprised a few small rooms and a seating area obviously for conducting talks, plus a few round tables, chairs and 2 PC stations. It appeared to be run only by a middle aged couple, with another housewife-looking lady who appeared to be assisting part time. On the walls, were framed photocopies of newspaper cuttings from the Chinese press in the U.S. The articles were all about the boss, an American Chinese ( supposedly a double degree holder and master holder in the science research and businees arena), his interviews with 2 of the American Chinese press elaborating on his plans and vision for the company.

i was ushered into one of the rooms and the lady manager, together with her assistant and Mdm Soya Bean Milk began to explain the company's operations to me. According to them, the company runs the following global operations :-
i) acting as middleman to facilitate non-American Chinese seeking further education in the U.S, (showed me the articles on their collaboration with one of the top universities in California),
ii) acting as middleman in getting investors for land development projects , and
iii) production of health supplements and direct sales of these.
Briefly, i was given an idea of each type of operation and shown some samples of the health supplements which the three of them praised and testified to be working wonders in their lives or in the lives of people they knew.

Basically, the company earns from commissions received acting as the middleman and each employee who brings in a potential customer gets a portion of the commission. When an employee has achieved a certain commissions target, he/she qualifies to be a member under the Bronze, Silver, Gold or Diamond Level depending on the amount of commissions earned. Membership perks include allotment of pre -IPO employee shares, sponsored vacations, sponsored courses in the U.S. , health supplements at discounted prices as well as a Global Cash Card denominated in USD. The company has, supposedly recently applied to be listed on the NASDAQ. Therefore, of all the membership perks, according to the manager, the most attractive would be the share allotment which purportedly has been valued currently at USD 0.50 (an increase of USD0.40 cents since the last valuation) and this has a potential of further escalating to a minimum of USD 20 to USD 80 at the IPO launch planned 2 years later. This implies if you hold 10000 shares now, you'll have a potential of becoming a millionaire 2 years later. Every shareholder will of course also be entitled to dividends.

They then asked if i was interested in owning the pre-IPO shares that are currently only issued to members of the company. They proposed an easier way other than my having to look for sufficient customers to make the minimum commissions target to qualify as a memebr. To become a Bronze member, which will entitle me to 6 bottles of health supplements and 600 shares, all i need to do is to pay SGD 1500 which would be the equivalent of commisions earned. i can also opt to top up the shares to 1200 by paying an additional SGD 1280. But according to them , it would be more worth it getting the Diamond membership which would entitle me to 9000 shares and costs SGD 10800 This, they said could roll into a million dollars if the share price escalates to USD 80 when listed on the NASDAQ.


Seeing my cynism, they then pointed out the cases of Google.com and Baidu.com where not many people had confidence investing in them initially when they were raising funds but that those who did , eventually became instant millionaires with the escalation of the share price on NASDAQ. They also said they themselves had reservations about the company initially but after the recent sponsored 21 days study trip in the U.S and having seen and spoken to the boss, having visited the head office there, having received daily updates from the boss through teleconferencing since their return, having tried the health supplements and benefited from them, they were full of confidence and enthusiasm about the company and the impending IPO launch. As such, Mdm Soya Bean Milk, the assistant and of course the manager said they have all topped up their shares with cash to the max in anticipation of becoming instant millionaires.


They then showed me the group photos of their trip which consisted of a total of 25 members from various parts of Asia posing with some of their American lecturers, photos of their boss interacting with them and the supposedly office building (which i notice did not have a name). They produced a coloured copy of the share certificate, which resembled a university degree certificate with a golden stamp and also showed me, through the internet, the company's website which has versions in various languages.


i was still not moved but remained open minded and told them i would have to check up the background on my own before i commit anything. They did not push me to make an investment on the spot but did remind me the price of the pre- IPO share would be moving up steadily and would cost me more to invest the longer i delay my decision.
i thanked them and left, though not before i've filled up a form with some of my particulars at their insistence.


Obviously, this is another form of MLM (Multi Level Marketing ) , only in this case, the sales pitch is raised with the lure of the shares having a potential of making one an instant millionaire. During my visit at the office, there were a few incoming calls, and though i did not get to hear the conversations, according to the manager, they were calls from members who could not wait to top up their shares as they anticipate the price would increase shortly from the current USD 0.50. Well, sounds like hot property....


i googled on the company's name both in English and Chinese when i went home and found that the only information provided on the internet all came from either the company's website itself or from its members' website, except for the press articles which were identical to the ones posted on the walls in the office. i also did a search on MLMs and read that these mostly originated from the U.S and many are in fact legalised ; many of such companies do list on the stock exchanges and have good enough relationships with the press, with politicians or the people in power to appear to be credible and to survive for years. But, in almost all cases, the company's profits which benefited only the very top few of the membership hierarchy are actually at the expense of the ones at the bottom--the newly recruited members who are the ones paying the most for the much overpriced products, who then struggle to find more recruits (victims) to cover their losses, in the hope of moving up the hierarchy.


As noticed, from the price i was to pay for the shares, each share would then actually cost me more than the said valued USD 0.50. i figured the difference would go into the pockets of the members in the higher rungs, such as Mdm Soya Bean, the assistant and the manager.


i have no doubt that Mdm Soya Bean truly believed in the company, having been thorougly convinced by the free 21 day study trip and the beneficial effects of one of the health supplements on her. i do not believe she is an intentional scammer but i do not eliminate the probability that she had unsuspectingly become one. i continue to keep an open my mind at the possibility that the global company does exist, that they do what they say, that they would eventually list on the NASDAQ and that the share certificates could be authentic and that they could be worth thousands in the days to come.


However, with a looming recession in the U.S economy, without concrete evidence that the company would eventually list on the NASDAQ, without financial reports on the company, without verifying if the pre -IPO share certificates are authentic, would i want to part with thousands to be lured into the millionaire dream? The lady manager did assure me that if it's fraud, they could have easily been exposed; that they have amongst their members, investors who are businessmen themselves ,well versed in the rules of business and could easily have checked up the credibility of the company. They had further assured that the share certificates are exchangeable for health products in the event that i should regret my decision, but this has to be done before any dividend is paid out.
Well, i'm too lazy to do a thorough check up and may not have the resources to do so in the first place and if i should regret my decision after paying thousands of dollars , would bottles of pills be a consolation?


The conservative in me says: What is too easy and too good to be true is probably too easy and too good to be true.

My only hope is that Mdm Soya Bean Milk, who had always looked happy, serene and contented with her soya bean drink stall would not lose all these intangilble blessings should her millionaire dream be dashed.

"For we brought nothing into this world, and is certain that we can carry nothing out. And having food and clothing, with these we shall be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and harmful lusts which drown men in destruction and perdition. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil, for which some have strayed from the faith in their greediness, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows."
[1 Timothy 6 : 7-10]

Er... but if you are interested to be a millionaire, let me know, so i can 'introduce' you as a member hor.... :)

Makan Therapy

T'was a foul foul day.
It's my off day after 3 days of labour and i had to run a few places to do a few things. i had made 'bodoh' decisions based on 'bodoh' judgement and have to suffer all the 'bodoh' consequences.....ended up in a real angry mood, angry with myself and felt like giving myself a few tight slaps!! 'piak piak piak!!!, yeah! i deserve it!!! ' ...but i couldn't bear to lift a finger against myself, instead all throughout the day, my heart was murmuring like the children of Israel when they were in the wilderness, complaining and blaming God and everyone else for everything......
The last straw came when at 7pm, bathing in perspiration, i chose to wait for the 'Express' bus from Orchard Road back to my rented flat instead of taking the MRT as i didn't want to be squashed under not so pleasantly scented arm pits in the train at this time of the day. But of course i had forgotten the transport companies here are all monopolised, and so to maximise profits and hence load, the 'Express' bus would have to make sure enough people would have gathered before it decides to show face. Unfortunately for me, this partcular 'expresso' decided that 40mins is a good duration. So after waiting for 40mins, at 7.40pm, i finally boarded the 'express' bus which took another not so express 50mins to arrive at the food court near my rented place. Lo and behold, it was drizzling! Wet and cold compared to the sweltering heat at Orchard 50mins ago. My heart murmured : God really likes to show off His creativity.
My tummy, meanwhile, was murmuring with my heart.
Thankfully the food stalls were still buzzing with life despite past dinner time and i got to order a bowl of 'la la soup yee mee'.
Hmmmmm...My my, when the piping hot, super delicious 'yee mee' with the generous servings of ingredients- 'la la' (clams), chye sim, egg, 'tau-pok' and ikan bilis went sliding down my throat, all the day's grievances dissolved, my heart and tummy stopped their murmuring and i finally remembered to thank God for this day, for the provision of that simple yet wonderfully therapeutic meal to end it.
The Chinese regard food as heaven, not far from truth!

Anti Spy Devices

I was searching for a sonic dog repeller on the web for my upcoming trip and came across one site that sold not only what i was looking for but other interesting weapons like stun guns, spy cameras, listening device and other spy devices as well. I found it a pity they do not have anti spy devices though they might decide to stock some if they know how much in demand these are nowadays....

A few days ago, i read an article that our neighbours were running short of anti spy devices 'cos after the big scandal of a high profile guy gettiing caught in action on DVD in RA scenes with a lady that's not his wife, the other rich and powerful or high profiled of the society had rushed to snap up as many anti spy devices as were available in the market, in a move to protect themselves from falling victims to similar spy activities.

Well, it looks like not only the rich, powerful or high profiled need the anti spy devices, we in the dungeon might need it too. One of my dungeon mates and i were called up separately today for a 'pep' talk or what is officially termed 'counselling' regarding two different complaints brought about by spies cum informants amongst our midst. Though it's not news that we are being monitored or watched, what irks me were not the complaints but rather the shady manners the informants did it, one hiding in the shadows, the other trying to malign someone else as the guilty one. Looks like we have to be always watching our backs or maybe we ought to look for anti spy devices that sound off alarms or better still, create a blockage whenever they detect people spying on or back stabbing us. :)

Ah Q will say: It's because we are good and cause envy, others target us.
Jesus says : Forgive them.
i say : Doraemon, give me that anti spy device, please ?
Ghandi says: An eye for any eye makes the whole world blind.
loveyunnan says: Enough of negative blogs, it's a New Year!! Remember The Lord had said "Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old" 今日事、今日毕。随风而逝吧! Let GOD and Let Go!

暗 Darkness

黑黑暗暗

烦烦躁躁

是是非非

蜚短流长

勾心斗角

明争暗斗

公说公道

婆说婆理
。。。。。。


我又回到了这随时都有暗战上演的黑房。

原来一个月的'软禁'是上主赐我的另一类恩典。

享受了一个月的清静,夹杂着之前尝到的人情味,我几乎忘了
以上的情景是我工作的地方的写照。

再次回到了暗房,从第一天回去至今的第五天,耳根没得清静,心在努力
的排掉从那儿输进来的垃圾。

人之初,性本善吗?是恶劣环境造就了人之恶, 或是‘人不为己、天诛地灭’之恶习造就了黑暗的环境?

In this dungeon,
everyone in position is expected to be alert, quick thinking, accurate in judgement and decision making.
Everyone knows there is little or no room for errors.
Everyone therefore expects everyone in other agencies working with him/her to be just as alert, quick thinking and accurate in judgement and decision making. Everyone wants to see only his/her portion of the job done well and cares not what every one else have to struggle with.
Everyone thinks he/she is always right and everyone else is wrong; even if he/she knows he/she is in the wrong, he/she has always a reason to justify his/her own wrong but not everyone else's.
Everyone may not know when he/she has offended someone or is a threat to someone and has become the target of attack.
Everyone just got to be very careful, not only with the job assigned but with interpersonal relationships, with every word used, with every action taken, with whom you call buddies.


A little unhappiness accumulated over time becomes a cause for war..

A demanding job, a demanding people to fit into it.



'For when envy and self seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there'
[James:3:16]



Some become victimized, some become malicious, some couldn't care less, some become disheartened, some become cynical, some become grouchy, some become power hungry, some returns tick for tack, just how many do remain true and passionate for the job?

An unhealthy environment, a time bomb.

本是同谋生,相煎何太急?


Lord, i'm weak, but you are strong and you are with me, remind me always of your word:


'Even so the tongue is a little member and boasts great things. See how a forest a little fire kindles!
And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body, and sets on fire the course of nature;and it is set on fire by hell.
For every kind of beast and bird,of reptile and creature of the sea, is tamed and has been tamed by mankind.
But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.
With it we bless our God and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the isimilitudeof God.
Out of the same mouth proceed blessing and cursing. My brethen, these things ought not to be so. '
[James 3:5-10]

CWO

30hours.

The IP has finally completed their poking business, submitted the findings to the bosses and conclusions and recommendations have been made. i was not briefed on whatever findings or conclusions drawn, just told to do '30hours' of what some of my colleagues termed CWO (corrective work order) in 4 & half days. This means i hv to clock an average of about 6 to 6 & half hours a day which translates to 1 & half to 2 hours work sessions each time......quite 'xiong' especailly after i've been idling for many years working most times only 1 hour sessions.......well...looks like it's pay back time :)
Frankly, i do not look forward to being back 'cos i've enjoyed my break away from the dark cold dungeon the recent one month. If it's any enlightenment, i'm even more convinced that my cup of tea is not found in this dungeon nor in this career anymore, my only hope is that the wisdom of God will show me my destiny.
No complaints about the CWO though, 'cos i know this is already God's divine favour unto me. The only thing is that the Accidental Cylist who happens to be planner for my roster has told me, (what i hope and believe to be a joke), that i shall join the B.I.M's* watch after i've been checked!
O Lord, you won't let that happen yea?...pls.!
*B.I.M--the lead character in Blog # 1 (June 2007 archive)

BLESSED 2008

Happy Blessed 2008 to me and every soul who reads this!

What a beautiful day this first day of 2008 is !

As i begin this blessed year with the tree top trail early morning at MacRitchie Reservoir, i rejoice at the beautiful weather the Good Lord has provided: the skies are bright and sunny yet the clouds provide a good shelter from the glare and heat of the sun and a cool refreshing breeze steadily brushed my hair and caressed my face whenever i'm out of the shades of the trees. i thank God for a wonderful time listening to the music of the forest--i've often wondered why it's called rainforest and i finally knew as i stood suspended high above the forest, watching the trees playfully dancing and chattering away in the wind, i seemed to hear them chattering in the same language as the rain...pitter patter pitter patter....ahhh....so that's why it's called rain forest ? : )

The tree top trail is really an easy and refreshing walk everyone in this iron and steel city should try at least once especially during these cooler months where the breeze blows so refreshingly. i think it's best to do the trail alone or with only your lover and do it early morning 'cos the trail is perfect for intimacy:- the whole 10km return trip has lots of opportunities for one to get intimate with nature, or with your loved one. Hear what you normally hear not, not only from nature but from your other half.

i felt so invigorated after the walk and am looking forward to the treks i've planned in China and hopefully Nepal this year. Yea, i thank God for a glorious 2008 where i would see His mighty hand move in my life and the miracles i've asked for manifest and the blessings of Deuteronomy pouring unto me and my loved ones...

.....And the Lord will grant you plenty of goods, in the fruit of your body, in the increase of your livestock, and in the produce of your ground, in the land which the Lord swore to your fathers to give you.

The Lord will open to you His good treasure, the heavens, to give the rain to your land in its season, and to bless all the work of your hand. You shall lend to many nations but you shall not borrow.

And the Lord will make you the head and not the tail ; you shall be above only, and not be beneath, if you heed the commandments of the Lord your God, which i command you today, and are careful to observe them....

[Deuteronomy 28:11-13]

i will praise You, O Lord, among the peoples

And i will sing praises to you among the nations.

For Your mercy is great above the heavens,

And Your truth reaches to the clouds.

Be exalted, O God, above the heavens,

And Your glory be above all the earth

[Psalms 108: 3-5 ]




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