The past few months had not bode well, disasters and troubles of large magnitude had struck one after another in the lands of the people i've always held fond memories of; riots and mass killing among men in these lands, snow storms, cyclones, earthquakes ....
Sadly, the emotional life of Me & Myself these last few months had been a mini mirror image of these disaster-hit lands.
Me suffered an emotional 'earthquake' end of last year, Myself got hit real hard by a psychological 'cyclone' end March, followed by a series of 'volcanic eruptions' in April, and now an icy 'snow storm' had struck, leaving the heart cold, hardened and cynical. Me & Myself had heard that the only other fellow who had been hit during the 'cyclone' which had cruelly wiped out part of our finances, all of our morale and our smiles had gone to seek professional counselling after having been observed to be in depression while manning the dungeon. Thereafer he was said to have gone on medical leave followed by vacation leave. Me & Myself had not seen him since the aftermath of the cyclone and no chance of knowing if he had recovered after the counselling.
Sadly, the emotional life of Me & Myself these last few months had been a mini mirror image of these disaster-hit lands.
Me suffered an emotional 'earthquake' end of last year, Myself got hit real hard by a psychological 'cyclone' end March, followed by a series of 'volcanic eruptions' in April, and now an icy 'snow storm' had struck, leaving the heart cold, hardened and cynical. Me & Myself had heard that the only other fellow who had been hit during the 'cyclone' which had cruelly wiped out part of our finances, all of our morale and our smiles had gone to seek professional counselling after having been observed to be in depression while manning the dungeon. Thereafer he was said to have gone on medical leave followed by vacation leave. Me & Myself had not seen him since the aftermath of the cyclone and no chance of knowing if he had recovered after the counselling.
Me & Myself are now debating if we should seek external aid, i.e let a stranger enter into the privacy of our emotions and thoughts and try to rescue Me & Myself from the 'volcanic eruptions and snow storm'. For the situation had worsen to the stage where the mere voice of any co-worker will trigger an eruption within and the tongue had to be supressed lest cynical and and antangonistic replies/remarks overflow. The situation is also such that the heart and spirit is not quite able to receive the word/teachings of the Lord anymore, only a frozen heart is left.
Me is quite agreeable to seek external aid and try professional counselling cos for the first time in Me's life, Me will be the owner of a home, where Me can play host to visitors, after years of anticipation and hope and plans, so Me does not wish for the big event that she has looked forward to for so long to be dampened or marred by the 'disasters' that had struck.
Me is quite agreeable to seek external aid and try professional counselling cos for the first time in Me's life, Me will be the owner of a home, where Me can play host to visitors, after years of anticipation and hope and plans, so Me does not wish for the big event that she has looked forward to for so long to be dampened or marred by the 'disasters' that had struck.
Myself however, is governed by the self imposed Just UNable To Accept rule: unable, refuse to accept any external aid, it's a private matter, Myself should be able to manage....
Until Myself is rid of the Just UNable To ACCEPT attitude, Me & Myself will continue to go through 'volcanic eruptions and snow storms'.
Until Myself is rid of the Just UNable To ACCEPT attitude, Me & Myself will continue to go through 'volcanic eruptions and snow storms'.
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