我X你‘mm’的！
i would like to respect you but i can't, not after the lame excuse you gave to cover up for that crude, big bully cum lecher. It's not the first time he had done this sort of thing and it's not the first time he gets away with it because of people like you. If anything should happen one day whilst you are in charge because of the situation you deemed ok today, i can only say you asked for it but please don't drag the others into it, don't bully those who respect the lives in their hands more than you respect yourselves.
Meet the 'Principals' session
As much as i tried to avoid it, i entered that dreadful room.
In that same room around this time last year, i initiated the visit to the P's room to seek an explanation. i was told then that those 'up there' have made up a certain curve for categorization. Everyone was categorized into one part of the curve, namely 'condemned', 'blue-eyed' or 'common'. This curve determines your livelihood and your future path in the dungeon. i had been banished to the 'condemned' lot and though i was told the categorization was based on performance and merits, he could not say then what yardsticks were being used to measure these. He could not give me a valid explanation as to why i was 'condemned' 'cos at that time, they don't need to give you an explanation and so, when i left that room that day with the inexplicable 'condemned' mark on me, i behaved the condemned way i was condemned to be till this day.
This day, a year later, the 'P', together with the 'VP' , called all dungeon mates individually into his room to let us know which part of the curve we have progressed to or back slided to in the past year and also to give each a so called 'explanation' as to how we were categorized.
i was told i have been observed to have 'improved; since the last categorization exercise and so i may leave the 'condemned' lot to progress into the 'common' lot. In what ways have i improved? They can't explain too, just that i've been reported to have shown improvement.
Did i rejoice on hearing this?
NOPE!!!
In fact, i got angrier.
In my entire work career, i've never performed or behaved worse than what i had the whole of last year. i had given the most condemned behaviour in response to the condemned mark they've stamped on me. And this, they claimed, was an improvement over the previous where i was the good spirited worker i was. And it's this condemned behaviour that actually got me to move up the curve !! i suspect it was out of pity that they moved me out of the pits.
Hence, i've concluded that i should remain angry, so as to sustain the 'condemned' behaviour in order not to be 'condemned' the next round. Sounds confusing? Yeah, i am confused too by the way the supposedly more abled and more matured people up there decide on our livelihood and paths.
It boils down to only thing: whether it's out of pity or out of their love for condemned behaviour that i was deemed to have 'improved', the whole categorization exercise , with the exception of maybe the few blue-eyed picked, in reality, has nothing to do with actual work performance or personal merits or number of ideas submitted or tasks completed. Who falls into the pit depends on who shoots the arrows and who got hit by the arrows.
In that same room around this time last year, i initiated the visit to the P's room to seek an explanation. i was told then that those 'up there' have made up a certain curve for categorization. Everyone was categorized into one part of the curve, namely 'condemned', 'blue-eyed' or 'common'. This curve determines your livelihood and your future path in the dungeon. i had been banished to the 'condemned' lot and though i was told the categorization was based on performance and merits, he could not say then what yardsticks were being used to measure these. He could not give me a valid explanation as to why i was 'condemned' 'cos at that time, they don't need to give you an explanation and so, when i left that room that day with the inexplicable 'condemned' mark on me, i behaved the condemned way i was condemned to be till this day.
This day, a year later, the 'P', together with the 'VP' , called all dungeon mates individually into his room to let us know which part of the curve we have progressed to or back slided to in the past year and also to give each a so called 'explanation' as to how we were categorized.
i was told i have been observed to have 'improved; since the last categorization exercise and so i may leave the 'condemned' lot to progress into the 'common' lot. In what ways have i improved? They can't explain too, just that i've been reported to have shown improvement.
Did i rejoice on hearing this?
NOPE!!!
In fact, i got angrier.
In my entire work career, i've never performed or behaved worse than what i had the whole of last year. i had given the most condemned behaviour in response to the condemned mark they've stamped on me. And this, they claimed, was an improvement over the previous where i was the good spirited worker i was. And it's this condemned behaviour that actually got me to move up the curve !! i suspect it was out of pity that they moved me out of the pits.
Hence, i've concluded that i should remain angry, so as to sustain the 'condemned' behaviour in order not to be 'condemned' the next round. Sounds confusing? Yeah, i am confused too by the way the supposedly more abled and more matured people up there decide on our livelihood and paths.
It boils down to only thing: whether it's out of pity or out of their love for condemned behaviour that i was deemed to have 'improved', the whole categorization exercise , with the exception of maybe the few blue-eyed picked, in reality, has nothing to do with actual work performance or personal merits or number of ideas submitted or tasks completed. Who falls into the pit depends on who shoots the arrows and who got hit by the arrows.
2008 Autumn Enroute Yunnan to Tibet 滇藏秋之旅
Lots of wonderful memories, just too lazy to blog, hope will do it some time. A picture speaks a thousand words. Excerpts of this beautiful route in the slideshow below :
Happy Belated Birthday
Didn't expect that i'd still feel touched blowing out birthday candles, even though a belated celebration it was.
Didn't believe in celebrating my birthday blowing out candles on a cake since a number of years back. In fact, i've tried to make it a point to travel on my birthday, to celebrate my birthday doing the things i'd like... and so i've not blown out birthday candles for quite a while...
i guess i WAS surprised myself that i was actually touched blowing out the candles just now, probably because i truly felt the simple sincerity of my dear old friends. i guess getting together being able to talk so carefreely and so spontaneously and to wipe out almost every dish was a really great and enjoyable birthday celebration for me this year, 'cos i had actually planned for rehabilitation this birthday.
Memories of past unforgettable birthdays i've had abroad returned, the most unforgettable being celebrating it together with Myanmar's Shan new year in a Shan village in 1996 ; also last year , at Nujiang in Yunnan.
Yes， last Feb， i celebrated my birthday at Yu's place in Qiunatong village .....with Yu's family and many of Yu's pets (including cats, dogs, chickens, piglets, cows, goats, sheep, horses...)
Didn't believe in celebrating my birthday blowing out candles on a cake since a number of years back. In fact, i've tried to make it a point to travel on my birthday, to celebrate my birthday doing the things i'd like... and so i've not blown out birthday candles for quite a while...
i guess i WAS surprised myself that i was actually touched blowing out the candles just now, probably because i truly felt the simple sincerity of my dear old friends. i guess getting together being able to talk so carefreely and so spontaneously and to wipe out almost every dish was a really great and enjoyable birthday celebration for me this year, 'cos i had actually planned for rehabilitation this birthday.
Memories of past unforgettable birthdays i've had abroad returned, the most unforgettable being celebrating it together with Myanmar's Shan new year in a Shan village in 1996 ; also last year , at Nujiang in Yunnan.
Yes， last Feb， i celebrated my birthday at Yu's place in Qiunatong village .....with Yu's family and many of Yu's pets (including cats, dogs, chickens, piglets, cows, goats, sheep, horses...)
The Yus taught me what is self sufficiency: rice and veg from the fields behind their hut, pork from their own litter (naturally dried and salted over a year, then boiled), eggs from their own chicken, three bowls of homemade corn wine and one bowl of a fowl dipped in homemade barley wine ...this was my 2008 birthday meal.
And oh, i did have a candlelight dinner the day after that too, at the Yudong Guest House back in Bingzhongluo which was still suffering from the electricity outage caused by the snow storm. The food stalls were all closed before sunset due to the blackout and i had to make do with candlelight instant noodles for post birthday dinner , unforgettable too....
Do you remember an unforgettable birthday meal?
What would my/your next birthday meal be like?
Actually it doesn't matter whether it was a great feast like today's or a simple one like last year's, the most important of all, it's the mood, it's the mentality. i was equally touched by Yu's meal as well as today's . There was simple sincerity in both.
Thank you, 朋友们！
舍不得二月
二月
一年之中
我最喜爱的月份
二月
风是强劲清爽的
天气多半是晴朗不酷热的
二月
在有四季的国家
景色宜人
百花盛放
或
白雪皑皑
二月
最想念云南
元阳梯田灌满了水
大理罗萍油菜花遍地
怒江之水平静碧绿
东川红土地色彩艳丽
元谋土林雄壮宏伟
丽江泸沽悠闲浪漫
版纳瑞丽风情万种
二月
就这么匆匆而过
就这么窝在这里而过
明年二月
一定要再
风花雪月
一年之中
我最喜爱的月份
二月
风是强劲清爽的
天气多半是晴朗不酷热的
二月
在有四季的国家
景色宜人
百花盛放
或
白雪皑皑
二月
最想念云南
元阳梯田灌满了水
大理罗萍油菜花遍地
怒江之水平静碧绿
东川红土地色彩艳丽
元谋土林雄壮宏伟
丽江泸沽悠闲浪漫
版纳瑞丽风情万种
二月
就这么匆匆而过
就这么窝在这里而过
明年二月
一定要再
风花雪月
好好放个屁
放屁、拉屎
多么不文雅的字眼
但是能通畅无阻无疼无痛的放个屁拉顿屎其实是很畅快的事，
却不是每个人都能做到的事。
好几天了，上厕所排泄还是百般疼痛，洗个澡还是那么费时。
出院时护士没说要换敷贴，可是伤口似乎流了些液体，看来不得不换
今天搭地跌到下个站的药房买消毒药水和敷贴，出去转了也不到10分钟，却已力不从心，身子想必还是挺虚弱。
问我今日许了什么愿？
吃得
拉得
呼吸得
放得
笑得
哭得
走得
睡得
无疼
无痛
多么不文雅的字眼
但是能通畅无阻无疼无痛的放个屁拉顿屎其实是很畅快的事，
却不是每个人都能做到的事。
好几天了，上厕所排泄还是百般疼痛，洗个澡还是那么费时。
出院时护士没说要换敷贴，可是伤口似乎流了些液体，看来不得不换
今天搭地跌到下个站的药房买消毒药水和敷贴，出去转了也不到10分钟，却已力不从心，身子想必还是挺虚弱。
问我今日许了什么愿？
吃得
拉得
呼吸得
放得
笑得
哭得
走得
睡得
无疼
无痛
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