My nazar

i begin the first day of this new year to find my 'nazar' gone. My 'nazar' is a circular piece of blue stone with a painted eye on it; it had been attached to my work tool for the past few years and today it's gone.
From Wikipedia:
The Turkish 'nazar' or evil eye stone (Turkish: nazar boncuğu) is an amulet from ancient mythology that protects against the evil eye. The 'evil eye'  is a look that is believed by many cultures to be able to cause injury or bad luck on the person at whom it is directed for reasons of envy or dislike. The term also refers to the power, superstitiously attributed to certain persons, of inflicting injury or bad luck by such a look.

i mourn the loss of my 'nazar' not so much 'cos of the superstitious belief that i've lost protection against evil at the work place but the sad fact that it's a souvenir gotten from Turkey while on vacation there 10years ago.
Maybe i should not have made dark wishes on the last day of last year huh? Bah! No regrets on that still.

Remembering

Remembering those who in their lifetimes had in one way or other made me feel this world was a brighter place than it really was , thank you.

Year end dark wishes

The countdown will begin soon...another end to another gloomy year..a year where my heart had continued to be filled with the darkness of this world and as the crowd out there begin their countdown, i choose to make a few dark wishes..maybe i should say curses:

may all the terrorists in this world be struck dead with lightning each time they meet to plan for any terrorism acts;

may all my inconsiderate fellow countrymen, especially those who leave their mess to be cleaned up by others, live to spend their retirement sweeping roads and cleaning tables and toilets...

may the Bukit Panjang 'hit and run' killer spend each night of his remaining life haunted with nightmares, may he lose all appetite for food, may he suffer multiple cancers and yet not die too soon...
may all those in authority who could have done something for justice but are not doing anything suffer a similar experience as the victims' families....

may @#$%^&*(......

Let it be true...

人生如茶几

今天看到朋友在 msn 的 message: "人生就像一台茶几，摆满了杯具（悲剧）和餐具（惨剧）"
我蛮同意的，记得念中二时上历史课有篇课文，内容是佛教的简介，开头的句子写到：
" To live is to suffer, says the Buddha"。。。

上了那堂课后，那句" to live is to suffer" 一直深深的刻在我的脑海里，人生过了那么多个年头后的我时不时都感叹着这话得精确性。。。

心理也时不时有这么个恼人的疑问：If to live is to suffer, why live?

minority

很快的，我和你都成为少数民族。

放不下

因朋友一家被迫明天搬迁，我下午到她家帮忙收拾东西。看到她家里还没收拾好的东西仍堆积如山，我难怪她说‘很怕’----很怕明天搬运工人来时都还不能把东西收拾完。

她的心情我非常明白的，因为我去年才搬过家，加上我每次去旅游之前的几个少时也和搬家前的几个小时一样，总发现来不及收拾或整理完该带的东西，即使我有提早开始准备。。。。

想想，我的人生里整理不完的东西多着呢。。。

相片、游记、书堆、信件、财务、人际关系、心情、人生计划。。。。

其实从搬家与出游时收拾行李的经验得到的启示是：很多东西我其实已经不需要了，但怎么没早点丢掉或送人或放下呢？

开始总会因为舍不得或怕要用时没有所以放不下，然后就一直带着，从一个地方到另一个地方，到最后却发现有很多东西是即使不见了你都不会发现，就是说这些东西早就该放下了。

希望我到了要搬迁到另一个世界前的几分钟，不会抱着‘怎么还没收拾整理好某事情’的心情离去，不会有什么放不下的事或东西要带去。。。。

生不带来，死不带去。

There's an interesting movement called 100 Thing Challenge:

http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1812048,00.html

where one is challenged to live a clutter free life by doing away with as many items as possible in his life till the number of items is down to 100, this movement was started by a guy named Dave Bruno who challenged himself to live with only 100 items in his life for a full year ending 12 November 2009. and until then he maintained an updated list of the 100 things in his life on his blog:

http://www.guynameddave.com/100-thing-challenge.html

This movement had found a great number of followers who believed in beating excessive consumerism and living a simpler life.

i think it's a great personal challenge and i should start soon too....

睡前随笔

又很不爽地过了辛苦的一天，幸好回到家上msn看到了在松潘认识的阿亮，聊了些旅游的事后心情好多了。下线时，他说还睡不着，想出去转转，反正车里有帐篷，想找个地方搭帐篷看星星去。。。。。

阿亮啊! 我这边厢过的那么不顺心，你却那么随心所欲！羡慕呀！！